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I’ve been on trial half my life. Yesterday, my 18-year authorized drama lastly got here to an finish when the Court docket of Cassation, Italy’s highest court docket, definitively convicted me of felony slander. Many individuals are aware of my wrongful conviction for Meredith Kercher’s homicide, however this lesser cost, arising from statements I signed throughout my interrogation, is the one which has continued to hang-out me. The cost resulted from a lie invented by the police: that I used to be current when my roommate Meredith was sexually assaulted and murdered at our house in Perugia in 2007. Every little thing that subsequently went unsuitable within the investigation and prosecution—the tunnel imaginative and prescient, junk science, biased witnesses—flowed from that lie.
The interrogation I used to be subjected to stays essentially the most terrifying expertise of my life—extra terrifying than that first crushing responsible verdict and 26-year sentence; extra terrifying than jail itself. I used to be 20 years outdated, and was questioned for greater than 53 hours over a five-day interval in a language I used to be solely simply studying to talk. The night time of Meredith’s homicide, I had stayed with Raffaele Sollecito, a younger man I’d simply began relationship. However irrespective of what number of occasions I mentioned that, the police refused to imagine me. I used to be berated, threatened, lied to, and slapped, and ultimately my sanity broke—I started to imagine the lies the police have been telling me, and I agreed to signal statements putting myself and one other harmless man in the home when the crime had occurred. I recanted just a few hours later, however it didn’t matter. I used to be coerced into signing the statements after which charged with felony slander for doing so. (The police, who didn’t report the interrogation as they have been alleged to, deny that I used to be hit or pressured into making these statements.)
This conviction branded me a malicious liar, and forged suspicion over me even after I used to be acquitted of homicide and free of jail. And it allowed the Italian authorities to scapegoat me for main the investigation astray, as a substitute of proudly owning as much as their failures. Now I’ve to stay with this wrongful conviction for the remainder of my life.
In the primary few days of the investigation, the police discovered what seemed to be black hairs on Meredith’s physique that they appear to have believed belonged to somebody of African descent. A younger man who lived within the flat beneath ours informed the police {that a} Black man generally known as “the baron” had visited his house up to now. With fingerprints and DNA but to return from the lab, these have been their huge leads.
However the police have been additionally suspicious of me. Giuliano Mignini, the prosecutor who led the investigation, was satisfied that the perpetrator had not damaged into our dwelling, because it appeared—a window was shattered, a rock was discovered inside. On a hunch, Mignini determined that the break-in had been staged, and due to this fact, that somebody with entry to our flat was concerned within the homicide and masking it up. Of Meredith’s three roommates, I stood out because the youngest and most immature. I used to be additionally the lone foreigner—the others have been Italians working in regulation places of work. One had been out of city, and the opposite had screamed and wept after seeing the grisly scene in Meredith’s bed room. I by no means noticed contained in the room, nor did I perceive a lot of the rapid-fire Italian being shouted backwards and forwards. It took me longer to grasp what had truly occurred, and I got here off as chilly and unmoved as compared.
One in all my roommates additionally requested me to lie—to disclaim to the police that we smoked marijuana. She mentioned that they might lose their jobs if anybody came upon. So I lined for them. However the police discovered marijuana crops within the house beneath ours—one thing I used to be unaware of—and commenced to surprise if I used to be conserving extra from them.
When the police interrogate you, the very first thing they do is isolate you. Isolation isn’t just concerning the room you’re in (one with no home windows and no clocks). It’s about making you’re feeling that the police themselves are your solely assist system. This was simple for the Perugia police; I used to be out of the country hundreds of miles from my household, and I usually didn’t perceive what was being requested of me. I assumed that the police’s unwillingness to imagine me was the fault of my very own insufficient Italian. The police had additionally tapped my telephone, and knew that my mom was flying to Italy to assist me, and that quickly I’d not be alone. And so, hours earlier than her arrival, they broke me in that ultimate interrogation.
That they had found a textual content message on my telephone that I’d written to my pal Patrick Lumumba the day of Meredith’s homicide. I had been working for Patrick part-time as a hostess at his pub, Le Stylish. He’d given me the night time off, and I’d replied: “Certo. Ci vediamo più tardi, buona serata.” This was my try at translating the English idiom goodbye, however to the Italian police, it learn as if I’d made a literal appointment to fulfill Patrick later that night time. Bingo.
Patrick was a Congolese immigrant. Right here was their African—the supply, they assumed, of these hairs. The police have been satisfied that I’d invited Patrick over, that he had assaulted and murdered Meredith, and that I’d staged a break-in to cowl for him.
The interrogation turned a relentless pursuit of a confession. I now know that the techniques the police used on me have been a model of the Reid Method, essentially the most broadly used interrogation tactic on the earth. Police-reform advocates argue that the method will increase the stress related to denial, whereas decreasing the stress related to confession. The issue is that it really works in opposition to the responsible and harmless alike, and research have proven that police are no higher than a coin flip at predicting whether or not a suspect is mendacity—although they’re, sadly, assured of their judgments. (The Reid firm denies that the method will increase the chance of false confessions, which they are saying occur when investigators don’t comply with its tips.)
They started by contradicting me relentlessly. Numerous occasions, I denied assembly Patrick or understanding something concerning the homicide. However they might not hear it. They nitpicked each element of my testimony about my night time at Raffaele’s—Did you may have dinner at 9:30 or at 10? Did you may have intercourse earlier than or after, and the way lengthy did it final? With a responsible suspect, this method is efficient at poking holes of their lies. However with me, an harmless suspect, it degraded my belief in my recollections.
Then they lied to me: Now we have laborious proof putting you on the scene of the crime that night time. We all know you have been there. Like many individuals, I had assumed that the police have been certain by some code of ethics to inform the reality. I couldn’t fathom that they might, and even might, mislead me.
All of this—compounded by the bullying, exhaustion, guarantees, and threats—reshaped my sense of actuality, and made it laborious to know what was true and what wasn’t. It was right here that my interrogators urged a purpose I couldn’t keep in mind being current when the crime had occurred: I should have witnessed one thing so traumatic that I’d blocked it out.
This was a minimizing tactic to place me as a witness, not a suspect. And after hours of being accused of mendacity, it was virtually a aid to suppose that I actually was affected by trauma-induced amnesia. However I nonetheless couldn’t keep in mind something aside from spending the night time at Raffaele’s. So the police led me so as to add extra particulars: We all know you met with Patrick that night time. The place did you meet him? Was Meredith dwelling whenever you let him inside? I attempted my greatest to think about what they demanded I keep in mind. I strung collectively fragments of actual recollections—Patrick’s brown jacket, a basketball court docket on the best way to my home, our kitchen. However at the same time as I used to be threatened with 30 years in jail if I didn’t give them the solutions they needed, I nonetheless couldn’t think about something to do with the homicide itself.
This culminated with an officer named Rita Ficarra slapping me on the again of the top, shouting, “Keep in mind! Keep in mind!” till my sanity gave method fully, and I blurted out, “It was Patrick!”—shocking even myself. I used to be so traumatized, I really believed that I used to be on the cusp of recovering some misplaced reminiscence.
The police high-fived and cheered, then typed up my ramblings. At 1:45 a.m., I signed the assertion. Then they rushed off to arrest Patrick. My mother had arrived in Italy and she or he was calling my telephone, however the police wouldn’t let me reply it. They mentioned it was proof now. Just a few hours later, Mignini, the prosecutor, arrived to take one other assertion to attempt to fill the gaping holes within the first one. I made inferences based mostly on his options.
Did you hear her scream?
I don’t know.
We all know you have been there. How might you not have heard her scream?
I suppose I should have heard her scream.
The police typed it up. Compliant and disoriented, I signed that assertion, too, at 5:45 a.m. Solely then was I allowed to relaxation. I curled up on two plastic chairs and fell asleep.
After I woke just a few hours later, the “recollections” I’d been pressured into imagining didn’t really feel actual. I informed the police that I couldn’t bear witness in opposition to Patrick. They ignored me. One reassured me, Your recollections will return in time. I demanded a pen and paper and wrote a recantation, explaining that I had been confused and pressured into implicating Patrick. I wrote, “Is the proof proving my pressance [sic] on the time and place of the crime dependable? If that’s the case, what does this say about my reminiscence? Is it dependable?” and “Who’s the REAL homicide [sic]?”
I handed this recantation—what would change into generally known as my memoriale—to the police. They handcuffed me and led me to Capanne jail. Even then, I nonetheless believed them after they mentioned I used to be merely a witness. It wasn’t till days later, once I was formally charged with homicide, that I understood I used to be a suspect.
Patrick, thank God, had a rock-solid alibi. However regardless of his alibi and my recantation, the police nonetheless refused to launch him. They saved him in custody even after the forensic proof got here again exhibiting that the hairs they’d recovered weren’t human; they have been doubtless coarse wool fibers. Among the many many samples and evidentiary gadgets collected from Meredith’s room, there was not a single hint of Patrick—or of me.
As an alternative, the proof began to level to an area burglar named Rudy Guede, whose nickname was “the baron.” The assassin had left behind, traced in Meredith’s blood, fingerprints, a naked footprint, and a number of shoeprints. Only a week earlier than the homicide, Guede had been arrested in Milan after breaking right into a nursery faculty, the place he was discovered with a big knife. After the homicide, he fled to Germany. Quickly, the police launched Guede’s title and picture to the media and issued an arrest warrant. In a Skype name with a pal, secretly noticed by the police, he mentioned that he’d been with Meredith on the home that night time, and that I used to be not there, because the media have been reporting. He made no point out of Patrick.
As soon as Guede was apprehended, Patrick was launched. The media paid little consideration as one Black man was traded for one more. (The police saved Le Stylish closed for months, and Patrick ended up dropping the enterprise.) As an alternative, the media centered on me—“Cunning Knoxy,” the allegedly drug-addled woman subsequent door gone wild who’d orchestrated what they have been now describing as a demise orgy with Guede and Raffaele. Guede was charged and convicted of sexual assault and homicide “with others” in a fast-track trial; Raffaele and I have been charged and convicted of the sexual assault and homicide a yr later. (Guede has maintained that he’s harmless, and continues to insist that Raffaele and I carried out his crime.)
The lie that I used to be on the home when the crime occurred led to repeated situations of what’s known as forensic affirmation bias. The lie coloured the gathering and evaluation of all the opposite proof. It led police to disregard exonerating proof, corresponding to my lack of a motive or any historical past of violence or psychological sickness, my alibi, and the digital impossibility of collaborating in such a brutal homicide with out leaving a single hint of DNA within the room. And it led them to distort and amplify the importance of trivial proof, corresponding to the truth that my DNA had been discovered within the lavatory the place Guede tried to wash off Meredith’s blood. In fact my DNA was discovered there—that was my lavatory too.
This phenomenon has been demonstrated by the cognitive neuroscientist Itiel Dror. In a 2006 examine, he gave six fingerprint consultants pairs of prints that, unbeknownst to them, that they had beforehand judged in their very own casework as matching or not. The consultants got some made-up context for every pair of prints. For the nonmatches, they have been informed that the suspect had confessed to the crime; for the matches, they have been informed that the suspect had an ironclad alibi. This fictional info resulted in two-thirds of the consultants altering a few of their unique judgments. Believing {that a} suspect confessed alters the supposed objectivity of scientific consultants. Dror went on to indicate an identical impact in different forensic domains, together with DNA evaluation and forensic pathology.
The jury, too, was swayed by the lie, although I really imagine that if they may have noticed my interrogation, they might have recognized higher. However my interrogation was not recorded, so nobody noticed the yelling, the slapping, and the way I used to be psychologically manipulated. The irony is that on the time, Italy was extra progressive on this problem than america: Recording interrogations was obligatory. However the police and prosecution claimed that my interrogation had been merely an “interview”—that I used to be not a suspect however merely a witness, and thus I used to be not entitled to a lawyer or a recording.
Italy’s personal courts dominated that my interrogation was unlawful and that the statements I’d signed have been inadmissible as proof for the homicide cost. However whereas being tried for homicide, I used to be concurrently being tried by the identical jury for felony slander, and the decide allowed the statements as proof for the slander cost. So the jurors have been instructed to disregard the statements for the primary cost, however scrutinize them carefully for the second. It’s absurd to suppose that one didn’t have an effect on the opposite. Had I not been charged with slander, I could by no means have been wrongly convicted of homicide.
After 4 years in jail, Raffaele and I have been acquitted of homicide in 2011, when the court-appointed DNA consultants discovered that the minuscule traces supposedly linking us to the crime have been unreliable, and probably the results of lab contamination. However our acquittal was appealed by the prosecution, and we have been reconvicted of the identical crime in 2014, based mostly largely on spurious character proof. Lastly, in 2015, we have been definitively acquitted by the Court docket of Cassation. In all of these trials, my slander conviction was upheld, with a sentence of three years—time served. And in that 2015 ruling, the excessive court docket additionally affirmed the police’s preliminary lie. Many who nonetheless believed in my guilt pointed to this “judicial truth” to assist their theories: Amanda Knox is a liar, and she or he was there that night time. Even when she is harmless, she is aware of greater than she’s telling.
This left me free, however wrongly convicted; it let Guede keep away from taking full accountability for his crimes; and it left the Kercher household with a pointless cloud of uncertainty.
I have been making an attempt to enchantment the slander conviction ever since. In 2019, the European Court docket of Human Rights dominated in my favor, sanctioning Italy for failing to offer me with a lawyer throughout the interrogation. Then, with the assistance of the Italy Innocence Challenge, I appealed to the Court docket of Cassation to reopen the case, and in 2023, it overturned my slander conviction and despatched the case again to the appellate stage for retrial. The excessive court docket restricted this new trial to analyzing a single piece of proof. The statements I’d been pressured into signing have been not admissible. All that the judges and jury might take into account was the handwritten recantation, my memoriale, through which I’d written issues like “I’m not sure concerning the fact,” and “I don’t really feel I can be utilized as condemming [sic] testimone [sic].”
I traveled again to Italy for the listening to in June 2024, and testified as soon as extra. The judges and jury deliberated for 2 hours, then got here again and located me responsible. I used to be dumbfounded, and deeply depressed. The conviction legally required two issues to be true: that I’d made a false accusation, and that I’d performed so knowingly. As for the false accusation, the presiding decide pointed to this line in my memoriale: “I stand by my statements that I made final night time about occasions that would have taken place in my dwelling with Patrik [sic].” I wrote this to affirm to the police, after being repeatedly accused of mendacity, that I used to be genuinely confused. I completed that sentence with “however I wish to make very clear that these occasions appear extra unreal to me than what I mentioned earlier than, that I stayed at Raffaele’s home.”
As for the second requirement, the court docket cited my memoriale once I wrote, “I noticed myself cowering within the kitchen with my fingers over my ears as a result of in my head I might hear Meredith screaming. However I’ve mentioned this many occasions in order to make myself clear: these items appear unreal to me, like a dream.” Regardless of the apparent confusion of my statements, the court docket argued that this point out of a scream was irrefutable proof of my presence on the home, and proved that I knew who was and wasn’t there. In brief, the court docket dominated that my memoriale was each false and slanderous and correct and dependable.
I appealed this ruling to the Court docket of Cassation in a single final bid to clear my title. And right here we’re.
In Italy, there’s a notion of bella figura—of placing on face. An old-world sanctity persists round reputations, defamation and slander are taken very critically, and officers are afraid of trying dangerous—everybody’s egos are at stake. An Italian lawyer as soon as defined my slander conviction to me as a contentina, a “small contentment” handed down by the Court docket of Cassation to the decrease courts and prosecutors. It was extremely embarrassing for all concerned when the excessive court docket absolved me of homicide and cited “sensational failures” within the investigation and “culpable omissions” within the prosecution. So the excessive court docket upheld the slander conviction as a comfort prize for the officers they have been rebuking. This absolved them of accountability for justice going awry, as a result of they may blame me, the liar, for derailing the investigation.
I’m crushed that Italy has cemented this lie into the authorized report, and that I’ve no additional recourse to clear my title in that nation.
I’m not a liar or a slanderer. However within the midst of all this, there’s somebody who dedicated slander, although he has by no means been charged with it. Rudy Guede falsely accused me and Raffaele of his crime after his arrest; in a single interview from jail, he mentioned that he was “101 p.c” sure I used to be there the night time of the homicide. He’s free once more, after serving simply 13 years in jail, and is being charged and investigated for sexual and bodily abuse of one other younger lady. (He denies the allegations.) He continues to smear Raffaele and me. After his launch, he mentioned in an interview, “The paperwork say others have been there and that I didn’t inflict the deadly wounds.”
Guede’s lies—and his comparatively brief sentence and launch—are spinoff of the lie invented by the police that proof positioned me on the scene of the crime. For a very long time, I blamed myself for succumbing to the stress to imagine that lie. However what occurred to me is just not uncommon.
My first glimmer of understanding got here in jail, once I obtained a letter from Saul Kassin, a psychologist and an professional in false confessions. What had occurred to me match a playbook that had been used in opposition to tons of—maybe hundreds—of different harmless individuals. The isolation, the bullying, the nitpicking of my recollections, the extreme hours beneath interrogation, the refusal of meals and loo breaks (I used to be even on my interval and bleeding by my pants), the minimization, and the deception—they have been all by the ebook. An amazing sense of aid washed over me in realizing that what had occurred was not my fault, and I got here to search out fellowship with others who had been put by coercive interrogations.
“Are you able to think about,” Kassin informed me just lately, once I interviewed him for a podcast collection I produced known as False Confessions, “within the Central Park 5 case, if every one of many 5 was charged with slander for implicating the others?” They, too, have been lied to concerning the proof in opposition to them. And like me, all of them believed that they have been merely witnesses, and that they might be launched after signing their confessions.
However the case I see as most parallel to my very own is that of Marty Tankleff, who was accused of killing his mother and father in Lengthy Island in 1988. He was informed that his father had awoken from a coma to say that his son was accountable. Tankleff couldn’t comprehend how his father would lie about one thing like that, and after the police supplied him the suggestion of a traumatic blackout, he got here to imagine that he’d been concerned—simply lengthy sufficient for the police to acquire his confession. It despatched him to jail for 17 years, till he was exonerated.
The issue with police deception is just not that it breaks your will—isolation, bullying, and exhaustion try this—it’s that it loosens your grip on actuality. This is the reason advocates within the U.S. at the moment are pushing to ban deception by police throughout interrogations, one thing that has lengthy been unlawful in the UK, Germany, France, Australia, and elsewhere.
Up to now few years, legal guidelines have been handed in numerous states within the U.S. to ban the police from mendacity to suspects throughout custodial interrogations, however they’re all restricted to minors. Adults, too, are weak to those similar pressures. At 20, I used to be in so some ways nonetheless a naive youngster. When I testified earlier than the Washington State legislature final yr in assist of a invoice that might ban using any testimony gathered by police deception, whatever the suspect’s age, I used to be shocked to listen to a law-enforcement consultant frankly admit that police want to mislead do their job. The invoice ended up being gutted; subsequent week, I’ll testify in assist of a brand new model of it.
When police inform the reality, they’re not solely being extra moral—they’re additionally being simpler. A rapport-based interview methodology known as PEACE has been embraced by the U.Okay., Canada, and several other different international locations. It eschews deception in favor of open-ended questions, and has been discovered to yield higher info than guilt-presumptive methods. And it has the additional advantage of not destroying the belief between the police and the communities they’re supposed to guard and serve.
As we speak, I’m going to permit myself to grieve this ultimate ruling in my very own case. However tomorrow I’m going to select myself up and proceed advocating for altering the regulation going ahead. I’ve emerged from this authorized saga with a deep understanding of how lies can derail the course of justice. When the police lie about proof to suspects, they often achieve this with noble intentions. They aren’t making an attempt to elicit false confessions, however these lies can ship the harmless to jail, let the responsible go free, and deprive victims of the closure they deserve.